This is a story about a masochistic man who enjoys crossdressing and anal masturbation, and is violated by a man of a lower rank.
I became a masturbator exclusively for older men who were inferior in everything, including their education and appearance.
Before I lost my virginity, I lost it to a masochistic man.
My sexual awakening came when I projected myself onto a character who was killed by the enemy in a video game.
I got a girlfriend, but she wasn't a sadist. I once came out and asked her to bully me, but she laughed at me and rejected me.

After thinking about ways to degrade myself, I finally arrived at cross-dressing sex.

I don't want to be a woman, and I don't want to have sex with men.
But the thought of being torn to pieces by an older man who looks down on me, and doesn't even like talking to me gets me hard... so one day I decided to be violated by an older man I met on my secret Twitter account.
The older man was inferior to me in everything, including his appearance, education, and sociability.

"It's disgusting that you've come to lick the feet of an older man like that, seriously."

そんな僕が自分を貶める方法を考え続けたどり着いたのが、女装セックスだった。

女になりたいわけではないし、男とセックスなんてしたくない。
けど、喋るのも嫌いで見下しているおじさんにぐちゃぐちゃにされることを考えると勃起が止まらない僕は、
ある日、裏垢で知り合ったおじさんに犯されに行く。
容姿、学歴、社交性…全てにおいて僕より下のおじさんに。

「こんなおっさんの足自分から舐めに来て気色悪いな、ほんま」